The grief is deep, and painful, and the beautiful memories are mingled with the longing for his smile. So we hold Cassidy a little tighter today, play a little more, give her gifts, in order to remember that she is still here, and He is still good. And He is.
We received a priceless gift last night at King of Kings during worship. As we worshipped the L-rd for His goodness and power the band began to play "How Great Thou Art". We sang this song to Wyatt before bed ever since he was an infant. I suppose in the beginning of motherhood I resorted to something familiar and beautiful, something I used to sing with my own father and mother in church. And then when Wyatt was old enough he would request it. The verses themselves are filled with powerful imagery that speaks to both me and Tom, but it's really the chorus that has taken root deep within:
And so, as we stood there, weeping for the son that is gone, we heard the L-rd speaking to us, individually. Ultimately He said the same thing: "Though I am the Almighty, and I gave everything for the redemption of mankind, I care. I care about you." Thinking of His blood poured out for us is humbling and awe-inspiring. Knowing He cares about the details of our lives -- our pain, our joy, our needs and our hopes -- revives our hearts and and renews our strength.
I will always point to 1 Thessalonians 4:13-14 as a cornerstone to my journey. "Now, brothers, we want you to know the truth about those who have died; otherwise, you might become sad the way other people do who have nothing to hope for. For since we believe that Yeshua died and rose again, we also believe that in the same way G-d, through Yeshua, will take with him those who have died."
Do you have Hope?